Saturday, June 30, 2007 . 3:15 AM

Why?..... you know just sometimes during my free time i just stare off to the space and start thinking of my life..... it's weird hahaha i seem to have stupid thoughts.... especially about relationships =( although i keep telling myself i don't want to get involved in a relationship the err there is this urm haih I cant seem to find a suitable word... should i say imeasurable desire??that is giving this thoughts.... I myself know i don't want to get into it but it just bugs me u know =( .Well not only relationship problems others too pop up in my mind... well i need a strong will and strong mind to restrain myself. Gosh i really need strength man..... 1 comments

Friday, June 22, 2007 . 9:37 AM

Ahhh just another day have passed and i seem to be realising something about myself,it's like knowing that sometime rite...... I just act weirdly. Let's say if i were to fail something give a example let's say a test.... and owh btw i did fail a test today =). It's not a surprise though i always fail tests. Those who have known me for some time it's not something new for you right??? =)...and so let me continue about this feeling i think i am feeling about. I somehow have this weird feeling in me saying ~that owh arthur u have just FAILED your test it's ok be happy show that you're happy~... It's been the same since secondary school.I've never had this weird feeling before till i started failing my first subject miserably and that is addmath. It's just like you know i start showing that im okay im still happy even thought i fail then suddenly after a while when i start to get to a quiet enviroment my feelings turn 180 degrees.Then i start having this really saddening feeling building within me. Is this just a natural thing for me to do just to pretend??You know whaT?? i don't think i can always keep showing this happy face one day I might just drop down and say i failed miserably and im useless. Maybe just one day this stupid face can show it's true emotion when things happen. I been told by someone that i was a complicated person and the only reason I ! AM! complicated is because i have this feeling that is being played around inside of me turning things complicated sort of trying to protect myself from something that I don't even know what it is about. It's all just crap !! seriously i tell you and I still can't get it till today why am i acting like this. Sometime I wonder why do i have this weird behaviour maybe one day i can just find out why........

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Monday, June 11, 2007 . 9:02 AM

As usual a day passes ..... BUT today was another disasterous day. Had the worst case study ever..........! Actually we were suppose to make some article using microsoft words. Well basically as usual we start of reading the instruction and then tried doing it without the help of the lecturer.... * trying to be smart XD * and then it continues after a while everyone seem to stumble till a point and I'm already starting to feel unhappy about it.Seriously i tell you it was bad the instructions that were given to us was totally crap it has the worst instructions anyone can ever think of. Then one of my coursemate started saying ~ Help me laaaaa i duno wat to doooo someone teach me, eh please help laaaa~ .So then i started teaching her how to do,but it seems like instead of teaching her i was practically doing for her...... Typical girls u know they seem to take advantage of guys that are kind like me =( -WARNING SELF PRAISE DETECTED - Okay enough with the crap talking and so everyone tried discussing how to do bla bla bla bla then we reach a point the instruction teaches how to unformat and we read it then we continue and then we did what the isntruction said and POOOOF!~ everything was unformatted =) isn't that great all the hard work we did was gone AND I BLAME THE INSTRUCTIONS! HAha well you were probably thinking why were we so dum to even follow such a instruction well everyone was dumb founded during then. Don't blame us blame the instructions XD.

Well sometimes , we should learn how NOT to rely only on instructions. This teaches me a great lesson that some instructions are practically dum an it is not meant to be followed.

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Sunday, June 10, 2007 . 6:35 AM

After a tiring day coming back from v201 class I had Kar Kien to send me back his also known as (KK) blessed with a brother who always sends me back =) .GUESS WHAT! I just got started on blogging and it just have to happen to me! What you ASK??? It's THE SYSTEM I TELL YOU! . I had to make create a new blog one after another just because of some stupid error. Seriously the previous post i had before this was pointless and now im going crazy. My brain are like exploding ~KA BOOOOOMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!~Hope I don't become a retard after this.....Gosh seriously why did I even get hooked up in blogging if it's not because of AH YEN i don't think i would be getting involve in this in the first place.

Anywayz not like I'm not gratefull that she was the reason made me started this well maybe its going to be better after everything is being set up. I just can't believe i could not get started with something SOOOO "simple" like blogging. Well as you've can already feel the bad mood called anger in me swelling up now i don't think i should continue this it's giving my head a serious headache but before i end this ~lainey~ gosh seriously i tell you i hate blogging right before i get started it's kinda not good for me now hopefully it get better =(.Well that wraps everything that's been happening to me for the pass 4 hours and I REALLY MEAN 4 HOURS!!!!

~THE END~

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